Escaping the Psychosomatic Hell Spiral

Why Magic Mushrooms Might Help with a Variety of Brain-Gut Related Health Problems

In late 2017, while I was in a period of high stress (due to pushing myself too hard with school, work, socializing, and sports, and being in a toxic relationship with my ex-boyfriend), I fell into what I’ve taken to calling the “Psychosomatic Hell Spiral” after I was prescribed a round of powerful antibiotics to treat a skin infection, which wiped out my gut microbiome and triggered a two-and-a-half year episode of severe illness (migraines, gut issues, low appetite and inability to eat many foods (leading to and exacerbated by a sugar addiction), weight loss, anxiety, depression, fatigue, brain fog, dizziness, sleep problems, difficulty focussing etc) which only resolved when, as I detailed in my previous post, I hero-dosed magic mushrooms multiple times in a short period and effectively “reset” my microbiome and rewired my brain.

Now, to be clear, my health has never been all that good. The antibiotics merely exacerbated symptoms I already had and added some new ones (e.g. fatigue, brain fog, dizziness, weight loss and reduced appetite). Mental health problems, substance abuse, and “neurodivergent” traits run in my family, my childhood was dysfunctional and often stressful, and I survived a one-storey fall onto the right side of my head when I was a year old; I have always been, and still am, neurodivergent*. I am, and always will be, healing, never fully “healed.” However, for over three years now, I have been migraine-free, able to sleep soundly, and my gut issues have dramatically improved, even though I am still sensitive to many drugs, refined sugar, and alcohol. I am less anxious, less depressed, less fatigued (despite being the mother of an almost two-year-old!). I no longer have problems with brain fog or dizziness, and I was able to stop taking the ADHD medication I was prescribed after my first big mushroom trip. I also have chronic shoulder and neck pain, which I assume was caused by my accident (and is noticeably worsened by stress), which I’ve been treating with massage therapy, acupuncture, and yoga. I used to rely on ibuprofen for my chronic pain but now I avoid pain-killers after learning more about how they might have been triggering or worsening my other symptoms (e.g. ibuprofen screws up your gut, Tylenol depletes glutathione, and there’s many reasons why smoking as much marijuana as I used to was a bad idea).

The Psychosomatic Hell Spiral refers to the tendency for people with mental health diagnoses (and/or diagnoses like ADHD and autism) to also be diagnosed with multiple chronic physical health problems (and vice versa), to suffer socially and relationally from their ailments, and to struggle with self-care tasks such as healthy eating and exercising. These factors interact and exacerbate each other in a complicated feedback loop, leading to worsening symptoms which can feel impossible to escape from. In the Psychosomatic Hell Spiral, the brain-gut is dysfunctional or disrupted in some way (e.g. gut dysbiosis), causing both physical and psychological symptoms.

For example, physical illness or chronic pain might result in a person staying home and avoiding going outside—the isolation and loneliness from reduced social interactions then trigger depression and/or anxiety, which worsen the illness/pain, which then lead to more staying home. If the sick person doesn’t have a good support system or lives alone, they might struggle to eat healthy, leading to low levels of certain nutrients and hormone imbalance. Poor diet then exacerbates mental health problems and physical illness. Staying inside could lead to or exacerbate a Vitamin D deficiency (the “sunshine” hormone), which then screws up calcium, magnesium, serotonin, and melatonin levels, leading to cascading symptoms such as poor(er) sleep, depression, fatigue, tachycardia, muscle aches and pain, and other issues. Loneliness (lack of oxytocin, or the “love hormone”) will exacerbate stress and affect cortisol. Chronic stress depletes magnesium, zinc, calcium, and iron. This could lead to the person being prescribed medications that might worsen other symptoms as well; for example, the ADHD medication (atomoxetine) I was on made my gut issues worse, and SSRIs and other psychiatric medications can affect levels of iodine, Coenzyme Q10, magnesium, melatonin, Vitamin B2, Vitamin B6, Vitamin B12, folate, Vitamin D, Omega-3s, glutathione, calcium, and others, all of which can cause or exacerbate psychological and physical symptoms.**

The descent into the Psychosomatic Hell Spiral is usually triggered by something such as a major life stressor, a viral infection (e.g. Long Covid and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and other post-viral illnesses would all be examples of the Psychosomatic Hell Spiral being triggered by illness), or, as in my case, medications such as antibiotics that disrupt the gut microbiome (I know at least three other people, all women with trauma histories, who experienced similar symptoms to me after antibiotics) combined with living with a vulnerably narcissistic boyfriend who wouldn’t let me break up with him. People with histories of childhood trauma and/or mental illness and/or disordered eating are all more vulnerable to the Psychosomatic Hell Spiral, as are people with high-stress lifestyles, unhealthy or insufficient social relationships and support, unhealthy diets, or who take certain drugs or medications regularly that might increase vulnerability (e.g. birth control pills affect nutrient absorption, in particular of B vitamins, Vitamin C, magnesium, and zinc; excess refined sugar can affect levels of Vitamin C, Vitamin D, magnesium, calcium, and chromium, excess caffeine can affect Vitamin C, Vitamin D, B vitamins, iron, and calcium, and alcohol can affect B vitamins, Vitamin A, Vitamin C, Vitamin D, Vitamin E, Vitamin K, magnesium, selenium, and zinc). It also seems as though women are more vulnerable than men, but the various reasons (e.g. birth control pills) why this might be are beyond the scope of this essay.

Once you are in the Psychosomatic Hell Spiral, it is very difficult to escape. It can take years to recover, or longer. Even if you do escape the Psychosomatic Hell Spiral, you are more vulnerable to relapsing into it when a new trigger is encountered (in my case, the stress of the Covid lockdowns sent me deeper into the Psychosomatic Hell Spiral, with my low point being a stress-induced migraine which triggered cyclical vomiting, requiring a visit to the hospital at the end of March 2020).

People vulnerable to and/or stuck in the Psychosomatic Hell Spiral will usually accumulate a variety of diagnoses, including but not exclusive to: mood disorders, anxiety disorders, autism spectrum disorder***, ADHD***, chronic fatigue syndrome (or Long Covid), fibromyalgia, irritable bowel syndrome, migraine disorder, tension headaches, postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome (POTS), Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome (EDS), dysautonomia, reproductive disorders like polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS), endometriosis, and premenstrual dysphoric disorder (PMDD), and might be at a higher risk for developing an autoimmune disorder, and to experience chronic pain and/or insomnia. (Low Vitamin D, in particular, is associated with ALL of these conditions; you only need 10-20 minutes of sun exposure each day (less if you have light skin, more if you have dark skin), ideally in the morning and without sunscreen, to get your Vitamin D requirements for the day).

If you have one or more of these diagnoses or these symptoms are familiar to you, I recommend testing your nutrient levels, in particular Vitamin D, magnesium, calcium, iron, zinc, and B vitamins. Make sure you look at the results yourself—often results will come back “normal” when multiple nutrients are actually on the low end of the “normal” range and not healthy for the individual in question.

Now, all this nutrition talk might lead some people to the conclusion that switching to a healthier diet and/or taking supplements is enough to pull someone out of the Psychosomatic Hell Spiral. Generally speaking, I think most people, regardless of their health, would benefit from getting 10-20 minutes of daily sunlight, switching to a diet high in healthy whole foods (e.g. the Mediterranean diet), and limiting or eliminating refined sugar (fruit, raw honey, and real maple syrup are fine), processed foods, alcohol, and caffeine. However, this isn’t exactly easy for everyone to do, especially if they are chronically ill, as healthy cooking is often time-consuming and labour intensive (and, of course, healthy food is increasingly expensive and financially inaccessible). If you have gastrointestinal symptoms and/or disordered eating, it can be incredibly difficult to overcome body dysmorphia, food aversions and/or nausea to eat a healthy diet. And many people are addicted to or dependent on alcohol or drugs that affect their nutrient levels. Furthermore, nutrient absorption might be an issue even if you are eating a great deal of a certain nutrient. In other words, it might be necessary to address underlying microbiome issues and brain inflammation before dietary changes are possible and/or effective.

If you wish to learn more about the effects of refined sugar and processed foods on the body, I strongly recommend checking out Dr. Robert Lustig’s work in Metabolical: The Lures and Lies of Processed Food, Nutrition, and Modern Medicine and The Hacking of the American Mind.

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Which brings me to psilocybin (note: I would be very cautious about trying this if you are under 25 and I do not feel comfortable recommending this for minors—see my previous blog post).

Psilocybin works because it addresses multiple issues simultaneously in the brain and gut primarily (home to our neurons and neurotransmitters), but also throughout the body. Psilocybin increases neuroplasticity and has anti-inflammatory effects, facilitates neurogenesis, and heals the serotonergic and dopaminergic pathways in the brain and gut.

In high doses, it also appears to have the ability to “reset” the gut microbiome (this may involve vomiting and frequent bathroom visits while it’s in your system) and heal the gut, and studies and anecdotes have shown psilocybin can be very effective for treating addictions, eating disorders, and obesity. After hero-dosing mushrooms, I was able to slowly reincorporate healthy foods into my diet that I had struggled to eat for over two years since the antibiotics (in particular meat and seafood), and over time and semi-regular use, I have been able to push myself to eat foods I’ve disliked all my life due to their strong taste or texture (including, hilariously, mushrooms, which I’ve always hated).

My husband and I have both also had experiences with high doses of psilocybin alleviating gastrointestinal issues, most recently when we came home from Mexico with symptoms of a parasite, and after about a week of suffering we both hero-dosed mushrooms; a big trip and a couple dramatic trips to the bathroom later, we were both completely fine. Do I fully understand this? No. But it’s obvious to me that psilocybin has very powerful healing effects on the gut, and as Hippocrates once stated, “All disease begins in the gut.”

In addition to addictions and disordered eating. studies and anecdotes have also found that psilocybin can be effective in treating PTSD, depression, anxiety, obsessive-compulsive disorder, migraines, cluster headaches, traumatic brain injury, autism, ADHD, Long Covid, chronic fatigue syndrome, autoimmune disorders, narcissistic personality disorder, pain in chronic Lyme and fibromyalgia, irritable bowel syndrome, and possibly even conditions like multiple sclerosis (MS) and Parkinson’s****. There is also speculation it could help with borderline personality disorder and other personality disorders.

Psilocybin is very safe—physically, that is. (Assuming you have a safe supply). While taking too much might be intense and unpleasant, there is no evidence that anyone has ever “overdosed” and died (it’s the same for LSD, check out this CNN story, “A woman took 550 times the usual dose of LSD, with surprisingly positive consequences.”) In The Hacking of the American Mind, Dr. Robert Lustig writes that “few users of psychedelics demonstrated either dependency or withdrawal upon quitting . . . Virtually no emergency room visits, no spike in crime, and no users rushed into rehab, as is often the case when dopamine agonists (e.g. cocaine) or opiates (e.g. heroin) are withdrawn.” (pages 112-113).

However, psychologically, there is a risk they could worsen your mental health. I have heard or read at least three (possibly four) stories of people committing suicide while high on or after doing mushrooms. And psilocybin studies have found that between 5% – 10% of participants report adverse effects / worse mental health after their trip (while over 80% report improvements—however, most of this research has been done on cancer patients). This article on bad trips is worth reading before trying psilocybin; “bad” trips can still be very meaningful and healing for people who have them.

The psychedelic effects of taking a large dose of psilocybin include can include plowing through your past, present, and potential future and seeing yourself more objectively. The mushroom spirit(s?) have a tendency to go through your life “Am I The Asshole“-style, which can be upsetting for people who come out a little more “A Christmas Carol” than “It’s A Wonderful Life.” I know two men who became depressed after a high dose of magic mushrooms in their early twenties because the mushrooms told them that they were major assholes (can confirm at least one definitely was)—however, they both became better people after their experience (here’s another example of this from reddit). While tough psychologically, this can be a big part of the healing experience.

I don’t get the impression the mushroom spirits are overly critical—my impression of them is that what they want from you is to at least be trying to be a “good” person (think The Good Place), and that they are generally understanding while blunt when pointing out that you’ve hurt others, fallen for and publicly supported or enforced an evil or corrupted or untrue ideology, or otherwise done harm with the intentions of doing “the right thing” or to be kind to others. At the same time, they can be very forgiving of mistakes you’ve made due to some combination of trauma, stress, chronic pain or illness, neurodivergence, malnutrition, and substance addiction, as long as you’re willing to listen and open to trying to heal and get better and learn from said mistakes.

There is significant evidence linking people with Cluster B personality disorders (narcissistic personality disorder, borderline personality disorder, antisocial personality disorder, and the recently-retired histrionic personality disorder) to a higher risk of suicide, in particular after suffering a “narcissistic injury”. A high dose trip can absolutely cause a narcissistic injury, so I urge utmost caution for anyone who has been diagnosed with a Cluster B disorder in the past (even if you believe it was a misdiagnosis). Psilocybin can also go awry for people with a high need for control and/or who firmly do not wish to change.

As well, if you have a family or personal history of bipolar disorder or schizophrenia (or risk factors for either or both conditions), then high doses of psilocybin might be a risk for mania or psychosis. There is also some evidence that bad reactions to psilocybin are more likely if you have heart or liver disease. You should also be very cautious if you have a history of suicidal ideation.

That being said, I did high doses of psilocybin despite having an uncle with bipolar disorder and some risk factors for schizophrenia (e.g. mathematical giftedness), and only experienced improvements to my mental health (perhaps some hypomania after the first few trips, but that was more related to meeting and falling in love with my now-husband during the same period), and studies have found that psilocybin use is associated with lower suicidal ideation. The problem here is that from my observation, people who are more open-minded and social seem to be more likely to use psychedelics in the first place. There’s limited data.*****

If any of this sounds familiar, I don’t recommend trying magic mushrooms without strong emotional support, substantial research beforehand (more than is in my blog posts), a safe setting, and some counselling beforehand and afterward.

However, it’s worth remembering that A Christmas Carol has a happy ending.

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Now, as I explained in my previous post, psilocybin works best when used deliberately (with intention), therapeutically (as opposed to in a party setting), and when combined with other plant and food medicines that work synergistically (as well as with sunlight for that critical Vitamin D!). You want to use the window of neuroplasticity and microbiome reset to establish new, healthier patterns. I discuss this at length in my previous post, and include a tea recipe that worked really well for me and several others. Many of the ingredients in the tea (chamomile, green tea, hibiscus, raw honey, lemon juice, grapefruit juice, apple juice, olive oil, marijuana and/or ginger, turmeric and black pepper) work synergistically with psilocybin to enhance healing and the experience of the trip. If you haven’t read it already, I recommend doing so now or after you finish this essay.

As I explained above, the Psychosomatic Hell Spiral and related diagnoses appear to be related to nutrient deficiencies and hormone imbalance, as well as a history of trauma, in particular in early childhood (e.g. ongoing emotional neglect or abuse) and/or substance abuse (refined sugar and caffeine are counted as “substances” here) and/or the ongoing use of certain medications (e.g. birth control, Tylenol, NSAIDs like Ibuprofen). What I think is the best practice is to combine drinking magic mushroom tea with intermittent fasting (don’t eat for 3-5 hours before you take the medicine, and wait to eat until after you come down from the trip) and then eat an eclectic mix of healthy, nutrient-dense whole foods (nuts, berries and other fruits, homemade organic chicken bone broth, and foods high in pre- and probiotics such as high fat plain yogurt or kefir are all good options). If you have a sugar addiction, I recommend having a spoonful of raw honey every time you have a craving, until the cravings peter off and eventually disappear. I also strongly recommend standing in the sun for at least fifteen minutes, without sunscreen, while the tea is in your system, as the psilocybin and sun exposure (Vitamin D) will work synergistically, especially regarding serotonin.

You may have to do multiple big trips to achieve desired effects. I recommend doing a big dose once or twice a week over around a month (it took me about 3 weeks), and sticking to the whole foods diet throughout. Do not drink coffee, alcohol (unless you have a severe addiction, in which case, seek medical withdrawal management), or anything with refined sugar in it during this period (kombucha, tea with or without caffeine, and unsweetened juice are okay). Anecdotally, I am aware that some people use psilocybin to wean themselves off psychiatric medications (I took the atomoxetine I was prescribed up until the day after my first big trip, but was on a small dose). I strongly advise doing more research and consulting a doctor and/or experienced plant medicine practitioner before doing so.

When planning your healing diet, I think a best practice is to focus on foods that will address potential nutrient deficiencies and hormonal imbalances that might underly your symptoms. I’ve included a list of the common deficiencies seen in the Psychosomatic Hell Spiral, common symptoms of these deficiencies, diagnoses they associated with them, and recommended foods (and other natural healers, e.g. sunlight for Vitamin D) to address them.

While I focus on the sorts of consumables you put in your mouth in this post, it is important to note that your body absorbs nutrients and information in a variety of ways. One of the magic things about magic mushrooms is that they can help you identify things you are consuming that are hurting your physical and mental health. There are a lot of different non-food non-pharmaceutical products I now avoid after magic mushrooms told me to, including synthetic clothing fibres (I purged all the polyester in my husband’s and my wardrobe after a big trip), tampons (my periods have been FAR less painful!), and sunglasses (after 2-3 weeks of squinting my “photosensitivity” improved! And I’m sleeping better than ever—turns out when sunglasses block light from entering your eyes, it affects melatonin production, among other things). What’s touching your skin (we absorb nutrients through our skin), what goes in your eyes (sunlight, media etc), sounds etc are all important too. As silly as it may sound to some people, I am now hyper-aware of the difference in how I feel when standing barefoot on grass or dirt versus the hardwood floors of my living room versus the carpet fibres of my bedroom. “We are what we eat” should really be “We are what we consume.”

Magnesium
A magnesium deficiency is commonly seen in people diagnosed with autism/ADHD, chronic fatigue, fibromyalgia, irritable bowel, migraine, PCOS, endometriosis, and is associated with increased period pain and PMS symptoms in women and worse Covid-19 outcomes.

Symptoms of a magnesium deficiency include: appetite loss, nausea/vomiting, fatigue, weakness, shaking, pins and needles, muscle spasms, hyper-excitability, sleepiness, and abnormal heart rhythms, as well as mental health conditions, osteoporosis, high blood pressure, and asthma.

Magnesium is a cofactor in more than 300 enzyme systems that regulate diverse biochemical reactions in the body, including protein synthesis, muscle and nerve function, blood glucose control, and blood pressure regulation. Magnesium is required for energy production, oxidative phosphorylation, and glycolysis. It contributes to the structural development of bone and is required for the synthesis of DNA, RNA, and the antioxidant glutathione. Magnesium also plays a role in the active transport of calcium and potassium ions across cell membranes, a process that is important to nerve impulse conduction, muscle contraction, and normal heart rhythm.” —[NIH Magnesium Fact Sheet]

Magnesium is also “essential” in converting Vitamin D into its active form in the body and transporting it into the blood. If you have a magnesium deficiency, your Vitamin D levels are likely affected too.

Regular consumption of refined sugar and and/or alcohol can deplete magnesium levels, as can excess intake of fluoride (e.g. if it’s added to the tap water in your area). You also need adequate amounts of Vitamin D, thiamine (B1), Vitamin B6, selenium, and Vitamin E to effectively process magnesium.

One of the tell-tale signs of a magnesium deficiency is chocolate cravings. Cocoa is high in magnesium. Unfortunately, as refined sugar depletes magnesium, consuming chocolate high in sugar is unsatisfying. Opt instead for chocolate bars that are at least 85% cocoa, or better yet, buy cocoa powder and add it to your smoothies or bake with it using a natural sweetener like maple syrup (here’s a healthy brownie recipe I use, conveniently also high in Vitamin E, B6, and selenium). Cocoa is believed to enhance the effects of magic mushrooms (I’ve found this to be the case!), so this is a good option for a snack the night or morning before drinking psilocybin tea. Mushroom chocolates (with a natural sweetener!) are also a good option for micro-dosing or smaller doses.

Other good dietary sources of magnesium include: avocados, nuts, seeds, legumes, tofu, whole grains, fatty fish, bananas, and leafy greens. Personally, I found I really craved nuts while going through my psilocybin healing process.

While I am generally sceptical of supplements, I now take a magnesium supplement every night a couple of hours before bed and have noticed a lot of benefits. It can be very difficult to get enough magnesium from dietary sources alone.

Vitamin D
Vitamin D is the big one. Every single condition I’ve mentioned above is associated with low Vitamin D levels (yes, even PTSD!), as are bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, asthma, allergies, dementia, diabetes, erectile dysfunction, heart disease, and various cancers.

Vitamin D is a steroid hormone responsible for regulating the expression of over 900 genes, and is involved in immune functioning, digestion, circulation, mood, muscle function, and the nervous system. The best source of Vitamin D is the sun (you need only 10-20 minutes, ideally in the morning and without sunscreen), but you can also get Vitamin D from cod liver oil, salmon, tuna, swordfish, sardines, and egg yolks. Mushrooms (both psychedelic and non-psychedelic) also contain small amounts of Vitamin D. Consuming healthy fats improve the absorption of Vitamin D.

Symptoms of a Vitamin D deficiency include: frequent illness or infections, fatigue, bone and back pain, depression, impaired wound healing, bone loss, hair loss, muscle pain, weight gain, and anxiety, as well as reduced endurance, sleep problems, head sweat, dizziness, heart problems, and reduced cognitive function.

Low Vitamin D levels lead to a cascade of other problems. Without it, you cannot absorb calcium or iron. Calcium deficiency can cause confusion, memory loss, muscle spasms, osteoporosis or weak bones and nails, numbness, depression, tingling, and hallucinations. Low Vitamin D can also affect magnesium levels (it’s a two-way street). Vitamin D is needed for serotonin and melatonin production and regulation, dopamine regulation, and enhances melanin synthesis. A tell-tale sign of a Vitamin D deficiency is pale, dry, dull-looking skin and frequent acne breakouts.

Vitamin D is also important for the regulation of estrogen biosynthesis and progesterone, and low testosterone and low Vitamin D are correlated, though the relationship between the two is unclear. Low hormone levels are implicated in fibromyalgia, whereas estrogen dominance is associated with endometriosis, PCOS, and PMDD.

Regular consumption of refined sugar, caffeine, and alcohol can all lead to a Vitamin D deficiency (and increased sunburn risk!). A diet high in seed oils can make you more sun-sensitive and sunburn-prone as well (which can, at the very least, indirectly affect your Vitamin D levels). As mentioned before, a magnesium deficiency can affect Vitamin D. Cholesterol (the good kind) is also needed to make Vitamin D from the sun, and it is also needed to make your sex hormones. If you decide to take a Vitamin D supplement, it is recommended you do so with Vitamin K.

Iron
An iron deficiency is common in people diagnosed with autism, ADHD (a severe deficiency is linked to a 30% increase in inattentive, impulsive, and hyperactive behaviours), depression, anxiety, Long Covid (it seems a Covid infection can aversely affect iron levels, putting people who already have low levels at a higher risk), POTS, fibromyalgia, migraine, chronic fatigue, and PMDD. Women with endometriosis or PCOS are at a higher risk for developing an iron deficiency, as are people with irritable bowel syndrome. Disordered eating can also cause an iron deficiency, and be exacerbated by one.

“Iron is an essential element for almost all living organisms as it participates in a wide variety of metabolic processes, including oxygen transport, deoxyribonucleic acid (DNA) synthesis, and electron transport.” —[Review on iron and its importance for human health]

Symptoms of an iron deficiency include: extreme fatigue, weakness, pale skin, chest pain, fast heartbeat, shortness of breath, cold hands and feet, inflammation or tongue soreness, brittle nails, abnormal cravings for non-food substances like dirt (PICA), and poor appetite, as well as headaches, dizziness, and a tingling in the legs.

Often, the problem isn’t iron intake, but iron absorption. An imbalance in zinc or copper levels can affect iron. Excess alcohol, refined sugar, and caffeine might all adversely affect iron levels by depleting Vitamin D, which is necessary for iron absorption. Smoking might also contribute to an iron deficiency.

Iron-rich foods include red meat, eggs, seafood, leafy greens, beans and lentils. It is a good idea to eat iron-rich foods with something high in Vitamin C as this helps absorption. Hibiscus tea is a good source of iron, which is a reason why this is a good ingredient in your mushroom tea.

Zinc
A zinc deficiency is common in people diagnosed with autism, ADHD, fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, POTS, migraine, depression, anxiety, endometriosis, PCOS, irritable bowel, and has been found to be related to Covid-19 severity. Disordered eating can cause or exacerbate a zinc deficiency, and a zinc deficiency can cause decreased appetite and loss of taste, worsening disordered eating. A zinc deficiency is common in Type II diabetes.

Symptoms of a zinc deficiency include slower wound healing, weaker immune system and higher risk of infections, blurry vision, appetite loss and weight loss, hair loss, diarrhoea, loss of taste and smell, slow growth in children, brain fog, and drops in blood sugar. Excess consumption of refined sugar and/or alcohol can deplete zinc in the body.

Zinc is found in meat, shellfish, legumes, seeds, nuts and peanuts, dairy, eggs, whole grains, potatoes, sweet potatoes, and dark chocolate.

Glutathione
Glutathione is a powerful and important antioxidant “involved in tissue building and repair, making chemicals and proteins needed in the body, and in immune system function,” and in the detoxification of “mercury, arsenic, lead and cadmium.” Inadequate glutathione levels result in toxins and heavy metals being stored in fat tissue.

Low glutathione is associated with autism spectrum disorder, ADHD, fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue syndrome, irritable bowel syndrome, migraines, PCOS, and worse Covid-19 outcomes including Long Covid. Tylenol is a commonly-used painkiller which is known to deplete glutathione; I do not think it is a coincidence that many Long Covid sufferers report that they initially had a “Tylenol and Gatorade” case of Covid-19—unfortunately, the glutathione depletion from Tylenol use and the nutrient depletion from the refined sugar in the Gatorade would increase the likelihood of developing chronic illness and falling into the Psychosomatic Hell Spiral.

Foods that increase glutathione levels include almonds, avocado, turmeric (a good reason to add this to your psilocybin tea), milk thistle, okra, green asparagus, broccoli, and spinach, as well as all mushrooms (magic or otherwise!). Foods rich in sulphur, Vitamin C, selenium, and cysteine can also boost glutathione, as can exercise and getting enough sleep (bringing us back to the importance of Vitamin D).

Other
Other nutrients related to the Psychosomatic Hell Spiral may include calcium (if magnesium and Vitamin D are low, calcium is likely affected too), Vitamin C (most people have adequate intake if they regularly eat fruits and vegetables, but absorption might be affected if they also consume a lot of refined sugar, caffeine and alcohol and/or are on medications that affect Vitamin C, e.g. birth control pills), and the B vitamins: thiamin (B1), riboflavin (B2), niacin (B3), B5, B6, B7, folate (B9), and B12. Going by symptoms, you should also consider:

Vitamin E: Muscle weakness, coordination problems, numbness and tingling, loss of vision, poor immune functioning. Low Vitamin E has been found to be related to speech disorders in autism, and to fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, and PCOS. Vitamin E is found in nuts, seeds, fruits, and vegetables.

Selenium: Infertility, muscle weakness, brain fog, fatigue, weakened immune system, and hair loss. Low selenium has been found to be related to autism, fibromyalgia, PCOS, and Covid-19 severity. The best source of selenium is Brazil nuts—you only need to eat 2-3 per day to get enough in your diet. Seafood and organ meats are also good sources.

Omega-3 Fatty Acids: Hair, skin, and nail problems, fatigue, sleep problems, attention difficulties, joint pain, allergy symptoms, excessive earwax, cardiovascular problems, and menstrual problems in women. Low Omega-3s are related to autism, ADHD, PCOS, depression, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, and dementia, and possibly fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue. Having adequate levels of Omega-3s has been found to be protective against Covid. Omega-3 Fatty Acids are important for serotonin regulation, and having both a Vitamin D and Omega-3 deficiency increases the risk for many psychiatric disorders. Good sources of Omega-3s include fatty fish, flaxseed, chia seeds, walnuts, and soybeans.

This isn’t an exhaustive list. But psilocybin seems to help “reconnect” people to their bodies, to their microbiome, and I found that I started naturally craving certain (healthy) foods after doing a large dose that seemed to address my nutritional deficiencies.

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How to Brew an Extra-Magic Healing Psilocybin Tea

Detailed instructions are in my “Psilocybin Tea Recipe” blog post. The original ingredients were magic mushrooms, marijuana, green tea, chamomile tea, hibiscus tea, olive oil, lemon juice, grapefruit juice, apple juice, raw honey, turmeric and a pinch of black pepper. Other good options to add to magic mushroom tea include ginger (instead of or in addition to marijuana for nausea), peppermint tea, and other medicinal mushrooms such as Lion’s Mane (a Stamets’ Stack), Chaga, or Turkey Tail (etc).

To prepare, steep all the ingredients except the juices in hot water for 15-20 minutes. Strain out the grounds/remove tea-bags and add the lemon, grapefruit, and/or apple juice. For a shorter, more intense trip, that’s a little easier on the stomach, add the lemon juice at the beginning with the tea etc.

This combo gives you a brew full of psilocybin, cannabinoids, Vitamin A, Vitamin C, Vitamin D, Vitamin E, Vitamin K, curcumin, apigenin, luteolin, quercetin, naringenin, bromelain, oleic acid, and various antioxidants and polyphenols (e.g. EGCG). You’ll also get traces of zinc, copper, selenium, iron, and Vitamins B2 and B12 through the green tea, potassium, magnesium, calcium, sodium, thiamin (B1), riboflavin (B2), folate (B9), iron, and zinc in the chamomile, calcium, magnesium, potassium, iron, zinc, niacin (B3), and folic acid (B9) in hibiscus tea, and calcium, magnesium, manganese, niacin, pantothenic acid, phosphorous, potassium, riboflavin (B2), and zinc from the raw honey. All mushrooms also contain glutathione and ergothioneine, including magic ones, so you’ll get some of that too.

This means the tea is:

  • Anti-inflammatory: Cannabinoids have powerful anti-inflammatory properties, “exert[ing] their effects through induction of apoptosis, inhibition of cell proliferation, suppression of cytokine production and induction of T-regulatory cells,” and both psilocybin and turmeric and known to be anti-inflammatory too. Olive oil contains oleic acid and an antioxidant called oleocanthal, which are also very anti-inflammatory. Green tea also contains anti-inflammatory compounds, as does raw honey and chamomile. Furthermore, in 2020, researchers from Brazil discussed how naringenin, a flavanone found in grapefruit, has proven anti-inflammatory properties that may help protect from Covid-19. If you don’t want to use grapefruit because of possible drug interactions, orange juice can be a good substitute. Psilocybin has been found to have synergistic anti-inflammatory effects with eugenol, found in turmeric.
  • Anti-viral: A 2021 review of polyphenols in green tea claimed that they “have antiviral properties, mediated through a variety of mechanisms”. Chamomile and hibiscus teas also have anti-viral properties. Raw honey also has anti-viral properties, as do lemons and grapefruit. Turmeric is also well-known for being anti-viral. Psilocybin itself might also be anti-viral. I’m going to throw it out there that my husband and I didn’t get Covid for the first three years of the pandemic and largely credit drinking this tea for that (as we actively socialized and had multiple exposures etc). We both took a break from mushrooms in the fall of 2022, and caught Covid for the first time in January 2023 (it was very mild, especially for me, and any lingering symptoms I had from Covid disappeared after I hero-dosed magic mushrooms using this recipe in late January).
  • Wound Healing: As I discussed in my first essay, James Kent of MAPS has argued that “in addition to producing hallucination, psychedelics also stimulate cellular repair, cellular proliferation, and potential apoptosis, or cell death, in response to damaged or infected cells.” I have experienced significant physical healing on both psilocybin and ayahuasca (I actually think ayahuasca is stronger here, but not as readily available). Furthermore, raw honey is well known for its wound healing properties. The various ingredients in the tea also provide most of the nutrients (in varying quantities) you need for wound healing (Vitamin A, Vitamin C, Vitamin D, Vitamin E, Vitamin K, iron, zinc, and calcium). Quercetin also promotes wound healing (and this tea is loaded with quercetin). Combined with the psilocybin, this seems to have a powerful ability to heal both outer and inner wounds. (No, don’t pour the tea on a wound, drink it, and no, I’m not saying a massive cut will heal overnight if you do this. I don’t really know what the potential is here).

The tea recipe also has the following synergistic interactions (probably not a complete list, but what I found):

  • The bioavailability of EGCG (an anti-viral compound in green tea) may be enhanced by Vitamin C (in the juices).
  • The quercetin (apple juice, chamomile tea, hibiscus tea, lemon juice, grapefruit juice) helps the body absorb zinc (in raw honey and green, chamomile, and hibiscus tea, ideally also coming from dietary sources the day before and after you do your mushroom trip).
  • Chamomile tea also contains a compound called apigenin, which has calming effects and can improve the trip, especially if you are anxious. For a high dose mushroom trip, you want to give up control and kind of “go with” the mushrooms, and apignenin can help with this.
  • The fat in olive oil improves the bioavailability of the marijuana compounds and turmeric, which are both fat-soluable. Black pepper also improves the bioavailability of turmeric.
  • Turmeric and quercetin may enhance the effects of Vitamin D (in mushrooms, but you also want to get some sun). It is possible that compounds in turmeric interact with Vitamin D receptors and/or that turmeric can improve Vitamin D levels.
  • Raw honey is high in bromelain, a digestive enzyme that, among other health benefits, enhances absorption of quercetin.
  • The citric acid in lemon juice converts psilocybin into psilocin, which makes it easier on the stomach. The earlier you add the lemon juice, the more psilocybin will be converted. This can make the trip shorter, but also makes the mushrooms stronger. I usually add it after the other ingredients have steeped, unless I only want to be high for under three hours (in which case I use less magic mushrooms).
  • Vitamin C may increase glutathione levels and “reprocess glutathione by converting oxidized glutathione back to its active form.”
  • Vitamin C also improves iron absorption (hibiscus tea).
  • According to a blog post from an Amsterdam-based weed retailer, Vitamin C improves the body’s ability to absorb CBD. Another weed retailer claims that CBD has synergistic effects with Vitamin D. I have no idea if either is true, they don’t include links to a source. It would be interesting if it is.

If this sounds too complicated, a simple version that works almost as well is: magic mushrooms, chamomile, raw honey, turmeric and black pepper, and lemon juice. Add ginger and/or weed (or smoke weed) to manage nausea. I really think it works better if you use all the ingredients though (e.g. you’ll lose a lot of the iron and Vitamin K if you omit hibiscus, and a lot of the quercetin without apple juice, green tea, and hibiscus).

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Similarities to the Spike Protein Detox Guide

While I was working on this essay, I stumbled across a social media post sharing a “Spike Protein Detox Guide” by an organization called the World Council for Health, which was founded in 2021.

I realize that mainstream media sources have stated that it is impossible to “detox” from the spike protein (from either the vaccines or Covid-19 infections). And the guide will be met with automatic contempt from many people because it lists Ivermectin (the human variety, for anyone out there still making “horse dewormer” jokes) as one of the ten detox essentials (we were in Mexico when my husband and I caught Covid, and he bought some Ivermectin over the counter to treat his symptoms … he felt better within hours after taking it).

The organization is clearly fringe: the only Canadian on the steering committee, Dr. Mark Trozzi, was barred from issuing medical exemptions for the Covid-19 vaccine in 2021 and was suspended from the College of Physicians and Surgeons of Ontario at the end of 2022 for “making misleading, incorrect or inflammatory statements about vaccinations, treatments and public health measures for COVID-19.” I’ve scanned their website and they are certainly opposed to vaccine mandates and discuss possible negative health consequences of Covid vaccinations.

What I was interested to note was how many of the active compounds in my psilocybin tea were discussed in the Detox Guide: turmeric, black pepper, and green tea are on the list, as is apigenin, luteolin (apples, chamomile) and quercetin (apples, lemons, grapefruit, and chamomile, green, and hibiscus teas). Naturally, Vitamins D (in mushrooms) and C are listed, and so is zinc (in the teas and raw honey). Fisetin, another compound in apples, is also on the list (also found in a study to be effective in reducing coronavirus mortality in mice). Rutin, found in green tea, is on the list. Hesperidin, in both grapefruit and lemons, is on the list, as is limonene (but as it’s only in the rind of lemons, not the juice, it’s not present in my tea recipe … though that’s easily rectified if you want to grate some of the rind of your lemon into it!).

Anyway, I’m not endorsing (or criticizing) the World Council for Health, which the editors on Wikipedia describe as a “pseudo-medical organisation dedicated to spreading misinformation about COVID-19 vaccines and promoting fake COVID-19 treatments.” (As an aside, one of the co-founders of Wikipedia recently told the online publication Unherd that he “no longer trusted” the organization he helped create). My only point is that it seems that by listening to psilocybin mushrooms and following their health advice to escape the Psychosomatic Hell Spiral and avoid Covid, I coincidentally arrived at many of the same conclusions as the WCH, and have seen dramatic improvements to my overall health from following them.

Another long post, but I hope some readers stuck with it.

~ Meghan

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Notes:

* While I have many problems with neurodiversity activism, I still prefer the term “neurodivergent” over the various labels professionals and friends/family have given me or suggested over the years (and I don’t have a better word to use instead). The DSM is flawed in that it categorizes “disorders” based on clusters of traits instead of identifiable causes of dysfunction, which is a reason why it’s so common for people to receive multiple diagnoses or to be “misdiagnosed” multiple times (however, I use diagnostic labels throughout this essay for clarity). Furthermore, there really isn’t such a thing as “neurotypical”; everyone is different (I also find it extremely irritating that when I disagree with neurodiversity activists on social media, I’m accused of being “neurotypical”, when literally no one has or would describe me that way after just briefly interacting with me in the real world). I consistently get feedback that I’m pretty odd. While I have traits associated with many different diagnostic labels, the head injury I had is pretty unique to me (how many other people out there fell around 8-10 feet onto their head as a toddler?) and explains a lot of my symptoms (e.g. motor clumsiness, chronic pain), while genetics explain others (e.g. mathematical giftedness, a tendency to constantly fidget, high sensitivity combined with high pain tolerance), childhood stress explains others (e.g. chronic anxiety, GI issues), exposures to medications explain others (e.g. the antibiotics I took for ear infections as a kid and GI issues), and lifestyle factors explain others (e.g. I think I screwed up my brain further by reading too much as a kid, and my high sensitivity includes a sensitivity to substances). I also don’t like labels because they imply that my problems are static and symptoms cannot be improved, which I do not believe is true and certainly hasn’t been true for me. Diet is major for me, as I’ve had problems with magnesium, iron, and B12 deficiencies in the past and had far more distressing symptoms when these were out of balance. Exercise is also helpful in regulating what my father calls my “nervous energy.”

** I recommend speaking to a doctor before trying magic mushrooms if you are on any psychiatric medications, in particular any that affect serotonin. Unfortunately, SSRIs might prevent psilocybin from working properly, and I believe there is a (low) risk of serotonin toxicity with high quantities of both. While psilocybin is known to be very physically safe, I’m not familiar enough with the effects and interactions of different psychiatric drugs to feel comfortable telling people on these drugs to try magic mushrooms without first seeking professional medical advice (here’s an article that might be helpful).

*** Why are autism and ADHD listed as possible diagnoses associated with the Psychosomatic Hell Spiral? Well, people with autism and/or ADHD (the two are highly co-morbid) are more more vulnerable to the Psychosomatic Hell Spiral for a variety of reasons (e.g. higher sensitivity, including to various drugs and medications, co-morbid mental health conditions, poor social relationships, higher stress levels, and nutrient deficiencies associated with co-morbid eating disorders such as avoidant restrictive food intake disorder (ARFID)), and falling into the Psychosomatic Hell Spiral will exacerbate existing autistic and ADHD traits (which could lead to someone previously undiagnosed to seek a diagnosis). Autism and ADHD are also both associated with higher rates of substance abuse (in particular refined sugar and alcohol), and with several of the core nutrient deficiencies associated with the Psychosomatic Hell Spiral, in particular Vitamin D, but also glutathione, calcium, B vitamins, and iron, among others. So to be clear, I don’t believe magic mushrooms and diet and lifestyle changes can “cure” autism or ADHD (but they may be the closest thing there is to a cure—I do not think “science” will ever be able to deliver one; autism in particular I think can only be healed by the reconnection to nature, natural foods, the embodied self, and other people that psilocybin can facilitate, those this is by no means the only thing that can help). However, they may be able to alleviate distressing symptoms in some cases, depending on the underlying causes, which vary wildly from person to person. Autism in particular is not a unitary condition, but an umbrella diagnosis for a cluster of symptoms originating from a variety of genetic and environmental causes, and I suspect ADHD is the same; as Iain McGilchrist points out in The Matter with Things (2021), while there are infinite factors that can affect the functioning of a complex system, there are only so many ways that dysfunction can manifest. The association between low Vitamin D and autism and ADHD is particularly strong, so I do recommend trying to get out in the sun (when it’s available) for at least 15 minutes each morning without sunscreen and increasing your dietary intake of Vitamin D (e.g. fish, egg yolks, mushrooms), especially if sleep is an issue for you. Be cautious with Vitamin D supplements, as too much can be toxic.

As an aside, it’s worth noting here that the rise in autism diagnoses (and ADHD) has largely been driven by social media, and information on these websites tends to be very inaccurate. However, I think a complication here is that excessive social media and smartphone use can cause or exacerbate symptoms/traits associated with autism and ADHD—not just the screens themselves, but also the lack of healthy in-person socialization and excessive time indoors associated with them (leading to the aforementioned Vitamin D deficiencies).

**** However, there is stronger evidence that ayahuasca, a far more powerful (but harder to come by and more intense to experience) plant medicine, can help with MS and Parkinson’s. A documentary on YouTube discusses this around the 4:30 minute mark.

***** In terms of psychedelic therapy, I suspect ketamine might be a better option for people with suicidal ideation. The problem is that while psilocybin appears to have no risk for abuse or addiction, ketamine can become psychologically addictive. Excess use of ketamine can cause bladder damage, and if you are using it illegally and snorting it, also damage to the nose (and safe supply is an issue … you don’t want to end up snorting something else by accident). If you are interested in trying ketamine, I strongly recommend going to one of the many ketamine clinics that are popping up to get an infusion under medical supervision. I also have good reason to believe that ketamine can be helpful for chronic pain (especially when combined with light exercise).

Psilocybin (Magic Mushroom) Tea Recipe

Updated March 11, 2022

This recipe is a magic mushroom tea that can be helpful for stress and trauma-related health conditions such as PTSD, depression, anxiety disorders, migraines / cluster headaches, chronic inflammation, addictions, brain injury symptoms, and digestion-related problems (psilocybin was used for thousands of years by Indigenous peoples, including pagan Europeans (e.g. in Ireland) and early Abrahamic religions, as a medicine and is currently being hailed by researchers across the globe as the next “breakthrough treatment“). I include a lot of information (and links to more details) and recommend reading through it all, especially if you are new to magic mushrooms or have had a negative or traumatic experience on them. This has been incredibly healing for me, and I have also shared this recipe with several other people who had similar issues and many have reported back to me that it was helpful.

I am not selling this recipe, the ingredients, or the prepared tea. I am sharing this information because I believe it has the potential to help a lot of people. If you wish to share or republish this material on your website, please feel free. It would be nice if you linked back here to credit me, but I’m not going to do anything if you don’t.

Yes, I realize magic mushrooms are currently illegal. This is capitalist bullshit (after all, antidepressants have been predicted to become a nearly 16 billion-dollar industry by 2023, and that was BEFORE the coronavirus). In the meantime, while I can’t know your particular situation, I wish you luck in finding a safe supply).

Psilocybin Tea

IMPORTANT NOTE: Psilocybin is not recommended for people under the age of 25 (and I do not recommend taking it if you are pregnant—due to a lack of study, there is no evidence as to whether it is safe—or unsafe—to do so), as it affects parts of the brain (the default mode network) that are not fully developed until a person’s mid-twenties to early thirties. As well, psilocybin binds to serotonin receptors, and so if you are currently taking other medications that affect serotonin (e.g. SSRIS), there is the possibility of interactions and it is a good idea to consult your doctor before trying magic mushrooms for the first time—it might also be a good idea to try to wean off or stop taking other psychiatric medication before trying psilocybin mushrooms, if it is safe for you to do so (note: stopping SSRIs too quickly can be very dangerous). Finally, if you are hoping to use psilocybin to treat mental illness, I also recommend working with a therapist or other mental-health professional for optimal results. It is also worth noting that psilocybin binds to serotonin receptors, and thus works on the serotonergic system in a functionally different way than selective serotonin re-uptake inhibitors (SSRIs), which researchers speculate may be why they seem to be more effective (and have fewer negative side effects) than the popular pharmaceutical drugs.

The effects of psilocybin begin roughly half an hour after consumption, and last around 4-6 hours. Drinking a larger dose over several hours is a good way of becoming high slower (the visual hallucinations can be overwhelming, especially if you are new to psychedelics) and to have longer-lasting effects.

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Psilocybin is not addictive, and while overdosing would no doubt be unpleasant, I am not aware of any cases of death caused directly by consuming magic mushrooms. In The Hacking of the American Mind, Dr. Robert Lustig reports that “few users of psychedelics demonstrated either dependency or withdrawal upon quitting . . . Virtually no emergency room visits, no spike in crime, and no users rushed into rehab, as is often the case when dopamine agonists (e.g. cocaine) or opiates (e.g. heroin) are withdrawn.” (pages 112-113).

Doses under 5 grams should be completely safe (unless you are a child or pregnant with a child). Tolerance builds quickly, so it is recommended for intermittent use (maximum 2-3 days per week, followed by at least 3-4 days off), not for daily use. If you microdose (take only around 0.5 grams), you should get some of the mental health and energy benefits without the visual hallucinations. In my healing process, I often took closer to 8-9 grams in a single day.

I don’t recommend drinking 5 grams in one go if you’re inexperienced with mushrooms, unless you want to get very, very high and possibly experience an ego-death.

Ingredients

Green tea, chamomile tea (or lemon balm), hibiscus / rose hips tea (I often use Lemon Zinger, which contains hibiscus, rose hips, and lemongrass; I’ve also used this incredible rose hips, nettle, and mint tea from Sḵwálwen Botanicals), marijuana (preferably an indica), psilocybin mushrooms, grapefruit juice (fresh squeezed), lemon juice (fresh squeezed), apple juice, extra virgin olive oil (or another fat, such as coconut oil or avocado oil), turmeric (and black pepper), and raw honey.

Preparation

Ratios are just recommendations for a place to start, everyone’s body, taste buds, and health needs are different and the best effects will be achieved when you experiment and determine your own ideal ratios.

(1) Finely grind the magic mushrooms (I recommend starting with a low dose if you are a newbie; a low dose is around 1 gram, while a high dose is around 4-5 grams; learn more about psilocybin and dosing here) and marijuana bud (if you want stronger effects of the marijuana, I recommend decarboxylation as a first step—you can learn more about different ways to steep marijuana into tea here).

(2) Steep the teas, marijuana, magic mushrooms, turmeric, and olive/coconut oil in hot water for at least 15 minutes (up to 30 can be better). Dosing depends on how much water you want to use, and how strong you want the tea to be. When I first started and was still quite ill, I preferred weaker tea that I had to drink more of, with higher quantities of the non-psilocybin and marijuana ingredients. As my health has improved and I’ve become more comfortable with the psychoactive effects of mushrooms, I’ve come to prefer a more concentrated tea that I drink less of.

(3) Pour the steeped ingredients into a large mug or thermos (note: mushrooms smell BAD so a thermos can be a really good idea), leaving about a third of the container empty. I recommend steeping out all the tea, marijuana, and mushrooms first, but there are some benefits to swallowing small amounts of the mushrooms in particular (however, most people would agree that swallowing the mushroom grounds can be a tad unpleasant-tasting).

(4) Add the rest of the ingredients. Squeeze half a grapefruit and half a lemon into the steeped tea, and add a splash of apple juice. Add a pinch of ground black pepper (to enhance the turmeric’s medicinal effects—this post used to say to add the turmeric here, but now I think it’s better to add it at the beginning). Add raw honey to taste (you probably want at least around half a tablespoon to make the tea taste good; if you want to use less honey, you can add more apple juice to sweeten the drink instead). Stir well.

(5) I recommend drinking the tea slowly—over the course of around half an hour or so—so the effects are milder and longer-lasting. (This was my preference when I was first trying psilocybin, but with more experience I now drink my tea much faster because I can handle getting high quickly).

Immediate and Long-Term Effects / My Experience

In addition to the psychotropic effects, consuming large quantities of psilocybin can cause nausea and vomiting (especially early in the trip), sweating, and increased blood flow that can lead to temporary swelling—I don’t really know a better way to describe the experience other than “toxins purging from your body.” How it affects you largely depends on your health and what toxins are in your system when you first try it.

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To share my experience: While I have had problems with migraines, headaches, chronic back and neck pain, chronic anxiety, depression, and nausea and IBS-like symptoms since I was a kid (caused by my dysfunctional childhood, a family history of these problems, and a traumatic brain injury from falling a storey and cracking my head open on a cement floor when I was one), these issues became far more severe for me at the end of 2017 (age 29), when I was prescribed antibiotics for an infection and my micro-biome was wiped out (neither the doctor nor the pharmacist bothered to warn me that this could happen). I lost around 8 pounds in a few weeks and my anxiety disorder went into overdrive. I struggled to eat solid foods, and began to rely on beverages such as fruit smoothies, ginger ale, and Powerade for energy. As a result, I became addicted to sugar, a substance I had never before had a problem with (sugar is not a food, it is a drug). This was exacerbated by my existing dependence on caffeine, and the stomach issues became even worse due to some significant life stressors in 2019—to learn about how stress can impact immune functioning, check out Robert Sapolsky‘s Why Zebras Don’t Get Ulcers and/or Gabor Mate‘s When The Body Says No: The Cost of Hidden Stress. I spent most of 2019 at home sick and depressed, often unable to get out of bed (for very long) and spending hours per day in the bath, smoking marijuana to manage my nausea. I was also taking way too much Ibuprofen for my headaches/migraines and chronic shoulder and neck pain (further fucking my stomach; this was obviously unwise, but when I have a migraine it’s hard to think about anything else). After gradually getting sicker for 2.5 years, I was becoming convinced that my problems would become chronic and I wouldn’t get better.

I started taking a low dose of atomoxetine for ADHD and chronic depression in late 2019, which made my stomach worse, but improved other symptoms for a while (I was prescribed atomoxetine instead of an antidepressant or a stimulant ADHD medication because I am considered at-risk for developing bipolar mania, as I have a relative diagnosed with this disorder). Then COVID-19 happened and the stress of it and some concurrent events in my personal life (e.g. I broke up with my boyfriend of four years in February 2020, but we were still living together when the lockdown happened) basically just fucked me. In late March, I went to the emergency room with a migraine, cyclical vomiting, and dehydration (and just because I know some people will assume this, no, I did not drink any alcohol, it was triggered by stress and I’m guessing failing to drink enough water).

I had no experiences with psychedelics prior to May 2020, having always been too nervous to try them as a party drug because of my personal and family history of mental illness (I would later learn that stories about psychedelics triggering schizoaffective disorders largely appear to be myths, and that psychedelics use is actually associated with lower levels of psychological distress, suicidality, and mental illness). However, two different health professionals I know personally (as in, a non-professional context) recommended I try magic mushrooms, and coached me through what to expect from the experience (I think this kind of coaching / support is important if you are using them therapeutically).

I began taking mushrooms in May 2020, and developed the tea recipe over the course of several weeks (with the help of several books, most notably Dr. Robert Lustig’s The Hacking of the American Mind, and countless articles). While I started with smaller doses, I quickly started taking much higher amounts (3+ grams on the days I had them; during this period I usually took them for 2-3 days in a row, then stopped for 3-4 days so my tolerance wouldn’t build up and I wouldn’t lose too much weight, as psilocybin is an appetite-suppressant even if you don’t feel nauseous), as I immediately felt benefits to my mental health, energy levels, and general desire to do things like clean my apartment and buy and cook healthy meals, and, having grown up in a “pain-is-gain” “suck it up, princess” type of household, I am the sort of person who will induce a ton of short-term suffering if I think it will benefit me in the long-term. And, well, suffer I did (I had to take around 3-4 showers per day, my face looked and felt inflamed for about two weeks, and I had one bad trip where I freaked out about how much weight I had lost and became convinced that my body was eating all of my muscle and bone and that I was vertically shrinking, which I obviously was not), and benefit I did (depression lifted, anxiety reduced to manageable levels, off ADHD medication, off sugar, off caffeine, developed a new aversion to alcohol, gradual improvements to my digestive health and ability to eat solid foods (by late fall 2020, my gut seemed to be more or less healed), and no migraines and only the occasional and mild tension headache since June; my face also looked several years younger and the olive tone returned to my skin, as I had been very washed-out before).

In an article for MAPS, James Kent proposes an explanation for how psilocybin heals both mind and body (as I very much experienced): ” . . . one point that is often overlooked in the mind/body discussion is that the mind is made of cells, the same thing our bodies are made of, and thus mental healing and physical healing both rely on the same process: Cellular regeneration in response to stress, inflammation, and trauma. Let’s assume that psychedelics heal by promoting cellular regeneration, and through this regeneration psychedelics can assist in building both mental and physical resilience. This would mean that in addition to producing hallucination, psychedelics also stimulate cellular repair, cellular proliferation, and potential apoptosis, or cell death, in response to damaged or infected cells.read the whole article

Should you experience the same swelling / increased blood flow that I did, I found it soothing to massage MCT oil onto my face (or, more accurately, to ask my new-boyfriend-now-husband to), and to blend a little bit of honey with olive oil and apply it to the inflamed skin (lots of people also add egg, but I haven’t tried that). It’s important to understand that my underlying health caused my skin to react this way; once I was healthier, additional doses of psilocybin have not caused any swelling and far less sweating than before.

Psilocybin mushrooms also contain many of the essential nutrients in other popular edible mushrooms, such as Vitamin D (see below) and Vitamin B5.

Why the other ingredients?

Not only will preparing the tea with all 11 ingredients make it taste pretty good (magic mushrooms are notoriously foul-tasting), but there are multiple known health benefits of each ingredient. One of the effects of psilocybin is that it increases neuroplasticity and has the potential to help heal damage to the serotonergic pathways in the brain-gut axis (fun fact, 90% of the body’s serotonin is produced in the digestive tract). Psilocybin stimulates neurogenesis, the process of forming new neurons, and this occurs in both the brain and gut (the gut contains around 500 million neurons). This means that your brain-gut can quickly rewire to stop craving unhealthy foods and substances and start craving healthier ones with the help of psilocybin.

Consuming psilocybin along with nutrient-dense anti-inflammatories and antioxidants can have powerful healing effects on the micro-biome and our serotonergic system, can improve our micro-biome diversity after only a few days (leading to healthier food cravings), and can provide a window of opportunity for a person to unlearn harmful patterns and learn healthy new ones. For more information on the health effects of plant psychedelics and why diet can be an important part of the process, I recommend reading or listening to the audiobook of Dr. Joseph Tafur’s The Fellowship of the River: A Medical Doctor’s Exploration into Traditional Amazonian Plant Medicine.

Many (all? who knows, I am not a food historian and have no medical training whatsoever, I am merely an unusually thorough researcher) of these ingredients have been used for hundreds or thousands of years in Indigenous and traditional medicines, which, unlike most of Western medicine, are centred more around prevention instead of cures, and with stimulating the body’s natural healing mechanisms (as Hippocrates famously said, “Let food be thy medicine”). This is not to say that there is no value in Western medicine, but rather that the weaknesses of Western medicine should be acknowledged along with the strengths of non-Western medicines and healing practices (and I think that non-Western medicines should be covered by Canada’s health plan; prior to using mushrooms, the most effective treatment I found for my digestive issues came traditional Chinese medicine, which cost hundreds of dollars out-of-pocket).

More information on each ingredient is available if you click on the name, which will link you to a relevant article about the substance on the website Healthline. Healthline articles are fact-based and include links to relevant sources.

Green Tea. Rich in polyphenols, which reduce inflammation; Contains a catechin (EGCG) which can prevent cell damage; Contains antioxidants, which can reduce risk of certain illnesses such as cancer; Can boost fat-burning and metabolic rate; Good for your liver. If you are sensitive to caffeine, you might want to skip this ingredient.

Chamomile Tea. Contains apigenin, an antioxidant which can help with sleep, alleviate anxiety by “turning off thinking“, and increase brain connections, among other benefits; Contains anti-inflammatory properties that can improve digestive health; May help lower blood sugar levels; Contains flavones, a type of antioxidants that can lower blood pressure and cholesterol levels. Chamomile is relaxing and can prevent anxiety while tripping. Lemon Balm can be also be used here (tastes better, but I don’t find as effective), and has many of the same anti-anxiety and calming effects. Lemon balm also can help with nausea.

Hibiscus Tea. Rich in antioxidants; May help lower blood pressure and blood fat levels; Can improve liver health, and increase drug-detoxifying enzymes in the liver. The hibiscus also really improves the flavour of the tea. Can also use a Rose Hip Tea (Lemon Zinger has both).

Marijuana. This is an optional ingredient to help with the nausea. If you smoke marijuana, you can leave it out of the tea and smoke a joint as you drink to lower nausea. However, if you want to avoid the marijuana high, steeping it in tea releases the precursors to THC and CBD, giving you the anti-nausea and anti-inflammatory effects without tripping. Decarboxylating your marijuana prior to steeping it will release the THC and CBD, giving you more of the usual high. (If you don’t want to use weed, you could try ginger).

Olive Oil. You need to include a fat for the marijuana to bind to; it will also enhance the effects of the turmeric. Olive oil also contains oleic acid, antioxidants, beneficial fatty acids like vitamins E and K, and can reduce inflammation. It is also good for your liver. Make sure you purchase a good-quality olive oil, as many popular brands with Italian names are fraudulent (Costco’s Kirkland brand is pretty good). If you don’t have or want to use olive oil, coconut oil is another good option (I’ve also gotten feedback that coconut oil is tastier!).

Grapefruit. High in Vitamin C and Vitamin A; High in antioxidants; Can improve immune system health; Good for your liver. Grapefruit can interact with several pharmaceutical drugs, so this is another ingredient that some people might want to leave out. For the best effects, include some of the pulp in your drink.

Lemon. High in Vitamin C; May reduce risk of heart disease, anemia (by improving absorption of iron from other foods), kidney stones, digestive issues, and cancer. For the best effects, include some of the pulp in your drink. Lemon can also intensify the psychedelic experience (“Lemon Tek“s are a thing, which people speculate is because it helps convert the psilocybin faster into the active ingredient, psilocin).

Apple Juice. Sweetens the tea (so it isn’t too sour and bitter); Rich in polyphenols and Vitamin C.

Turmeric. Powerful anti-inflammatory effects; High in antioxidants; Boosts brain-derived neurotropic factor; Can help fight depression; May delay aging and fight age-related chronic diseases. Turmeric is a natural MAO Inhibitor, and so can also prolong or intensify the psychedelic experience. Turmeric works best when consumed with black pepper so you should also grind a pinch into your tea or grind some onto a snack you eat around the same time.

Raw Honey. Rich in antioxidants; Can improve cholesterol levels; Can lower triglycerides (a risk factor for heart disease); Promotes wound and burn healing; Works well as a cough suppressant. Consuming honey with psilocybin, while also cutting all processed foods and added / refined sugars during the same period, also helps treat sugar addiction. Honey is also pretty essential if you want the tea to taste good. Also there is a good chance the tea will make you vomit, and honey can help heal / soothe your esophagus. Raw honey is better than pasteurized honey, as pasteurized honeys can contain added sugars. Detailed research on the health benefits of honey is available here.

Other Recommended Foods & Activities to Do While High on Psilocybin to Achieve Optimal Benefits

Healthy Whole Foods. While you are taking the mushroom tea, eliminate all processed foods, alcohol, and added sugars from your diet (with the exception of honey, and other healthier natural sugars such as maple syrup). Eat multiple small meals made up of nutrient-dense whole foods, including hard cheeses, nuts, fruit (especially berries), dark chocolate, bone broths (e.g. homemade chicken soup), cooked vegetables and vegetable-based sauces, foods high in probiotics (e.g. Greek yogurt, kefir, parmigiano-reggiano, miso, kombucha, and others), and healthy carbohydrates (e.g. sourdough, whole grains). I recommend eating foods that are calorie-dense as well as nutrient-dense (e.g. olive oil, avocados, walnuts, higher-fat yogurts)—the healthiest way to eat is to try to maximize how much nutrition your brain receives while taking up the smallest volume in your stomach. This is dietary advice that’s pretty common to a lot of diets and cleanses, but the difference here is that psilocybin will make it A LOT easier to do by shutting down cravings. I recommend satisfying hunger whenever you detect it instead of forcing yourself to wait for set meal times or trying to fast. Try to “listen” to your micro-bacteria (or, as I like to think about it, listen to your people) and figure out what they crave. If you are craving sugar, have fruit or something with raw honey in it. If you are craving fats, go for nuts or cheese. You get the gist. Studies have found that changing from a Western diet to a healthier one such as the Mediterranean diet can alter your gut bacteria in a matter of days, leading to “improvements in cognitive function and memory, immunity and bone strength,” (yes, I’m obviously biased toward Mediterranean food because I have an Italian grandparent and grew up on the stuff, but nutritionists pretty consistently say this is the healthiest diet in the world). Here’s an interesting lecture about the connections between health, mental health, diet, the micro-biome, and neurotransmitter production.

Vitamin D. You want to get your Vitamin D from direct sunlight, if possible (supplements and Vitamin D added to diary products can be helpful, but do not work as well as direct sunlight). Go outside for at least 15-30 minutes while the tea is in your system. Do not use sunscreen, as it blocks Vitamin D absorption and most sunscreens include harmful chemicals (e.g. oxybenzone) which can seep into your bloodstream and cause hormonal imbalances. I also strongly recommend avoiding most skin”care” and make-up products; as we absorb nutrients through our skin, and our skin has its own micro-biome, a good rule of thumb is to only put substances on your skin that are also safe to ingest (again, I might be biased because I’ve only used water, soap, and edible oils such as olive oil, MCT oil, coconut oil, and rosehip oil on my skin for nearly a decade). Research has shown that Vitamin D helps regulate the production of serotonin (and so will positively interact with the psilocybin), and a Vitamin D deficiency can lead to numerous health problems, including mental health problems, fatigue, bone and muscle pain and weakness, increased risk for opioid addictions, lowered immune functioning (and increased risk for COVID-19) and poorer wound healing.

Music, Singing, and Sound Therapies. Singing has been shown to improve mental health, relieve stress (reduce cortisol levels), release endorphins (reducing pain), improve immune system functioning, improve lung capacity, and stimulate circulation, among other health benefits. Listening to singing voices (without autotune) has similar benefits for mental health and stress hormone levels (personally, I went with musicals, in particular The Sound of Music and Joseph and the Amazing Technicolour Dreamcoat, as my psilocybin soundtrack, also because I am an inexperienced singer and the songs are relatively easy to sing along to). (Update: Encanto!!! New favourite.) Studies have found that singing songs you enjoy along with other voices increase our levels of serotonin and dopamine (in addition, I find it much easier to sing without anxiety and to hit notes correctly while high on psilocybin). Other types of music and sound therapy may also be beneficial, depending on individual preferences. I also found it helpful to meditate while listening to binaural beats (this could be the placebo effect, but it’s harmless to try so why not?). The YouTube channel Magnetic Minds has several available to listen to for free.

Oxytocin, Touch, and Social Connection. If you are planning on taking a larger dose of psilocybin, this is ideally done with a close friend, trusted family member, romantic partner, or with a trusted mental health professional. This is partially because a trip-sitter can help should you have a bad trip (e.g. frightening visual hallucinations) and because touch-hunger (craving for hugging, cuddling, and skin-to-skin contact with another person) is common as you are coming down from the high. However, another reason is that you want to stimulate release of oxytocin, known colloquially as the “love hormone,” and the best way to do this is by connecting to another person. Oxytocin has several positive benefits such as promoting attachment / connection, decreasing stress and cortisol levels, reducing drug cravings, relieving depression, reducing pain (or at least anxiety / awareness of pain), and improving sleep. In addition, oxytocin modulates the serotonergic system. If it’s an option, I’m pretty sure sex with someone you’re really into is one of the best ways to release oxytocin (as well as vasopressin, dopamine, serotonin, and norepinephrine). Sex also has been show to help our immune systems and lower blood pressure. Love heals, as they say. Furthermore, sex on psychedelic drugs is fantastic. If you’re flying solo, options for boosting oxytocin levels include yoga, meditation, cuddling a beloved pet, listening to music (see above), and going for a massage.

Exercise. I think almost all of us know why exercise is good for you, so I’ll keep this brief and just say that I found yoga / stretching, dancing to music, and sex the best way to exercise while on magic mushrooms. If it’s an option for you, going for a hike or a run in the woods is also good (psilocybin increases awareness of our senses, and things like traffic can be upsetting). Psilocybin also causes visual hallucinations, so I personally would avoid most sports if you are taking a higher dose. You can read more about the health benefits of exercise here.

Water. Drink LOTS of water in addition to your tea, as it will dehydrate you. The tea is likely to cause sweating (which is healthy, as long as you hydrate) and even pimples (I got a few in places I hadn’t gotten a zit in since I was a teenager), so you will want to shower, possibly multiple times a day (I think I got up to around four). If the tap water in your area has fluoride in it, you might want to use a water purifier, if it’s an option, as too much fluoride can affect your magnesium absorption, leading to cascading negative health effects, including poorer mental health (and worse COVID-19 outcomes). You can read more about the health benefits of water here.

Connect with Nature. Looking at fractal patterns—the self-similar repeating geometric patterns that make up the natural world around us—are very soothing because our visual system is hardwired to understand these patterns. (The same can be said for the auditory system and music and other sounds that are soothing to us—these tend to follow fractal patterns). Indeed, some academics have speculated our consciousness itself might be fractal in nature. As well, gardening has been found to help boost mood, reduce stress (cortisol), aid in addiction recovery, and foster a sense of connection, among other health and mental health benefits. For example, “forest bathing“, or immersing oneself in nature / greenery with therapeutic intention, has been linked to better recovery from surgery, better stress management, and improved immune functioning. To learn more about fractal patterns in nature and in the human body, check out the hour-long documentary Fractals: Hunting the Hidden Dimension over on YouTube.

Sleep and Melatonin. Get a lot of sleep if you’re using psilocybin to heal health problems. Psilocybin will keep your mind awake, so make sure you stop drinking the tea at least five hours before you want to go to bed (ideally six or seven hours before). You will get the best effects if you sleep while it’s dark out and wake up to natural sunlight. Serotonin is the precursor to melatonin, the hormone released by the pineal gland that aids in sleep. Secretion of melatonin is strongly affected by light exposure, which is why it’s important to get outside for some natural sunlight and Vitamin D (a Vitamin D deficiency is linked to sleep disorders), to avoid screens before bed (I’m terrible at this, but it’s still good advice!), and to sleep while it’s dark out.

So, Basically, You’re Saying Do a Bunch of Healthy Things All At Once

Yes. Our bodies are extremely complex. But you’ll notice that the common thread here is serotonin. In short, I believe that combining these therapies while using magic mushrooms can heal the serotonergic system and the body’s brain-gut axis, and reduce inflammation throughout the body and especially in the brain.

I also realize that many of the items listed here are not options for many people, for reasons beyond their control. I am a proponent of a wealth tax (along with a bunch of other reforms) to pay for social supports and services, in particular to tackle our mental health and addiction crises.

Government policies that would empower people to try the therapies above include:

(1) Legalizing psychedelic drugs, in particular psilocybin. Covering psilocybin and therapy under the Canadian health plan, and training mental health practitioners in psychedelic therapies.

(2) Government regulation of the food industry to include warning labels about the dangers of processed foods on our health, and policies to ensure that healthy foods are available and affordable in all regions. Implementing regulation to prevent food industry lobbyists and funding bodies from influencing research or advertising their products using misleading or false claims. Banning advertising for all junk foods. Revising Canada’s food guide using the latest research in nutrition and endocrinology, and revising the health curriculum in high schools. Obviously, it would be unethical to force people to eat in any particular way if they do not want to, but it is a human rights issue that not all people have the option or information to make healthy decisions.

(3) Ensuring that clean water is available to everyone (it’s really appalling that this hasn’t happened yet).

(4) Implementing a universal basic income, and decreasing the workweek. This would empower people to turn down exploitative and unethical jobs, increase the number of jobs available, and give people more free time to get those much-needed sunlight hours, sleep, exercise, and time to relax with friends and family. This would decrease the overall stress (cortisol) levels of the general population, leading to better overall health and health outcomes. Affordable housing for all is also a critical part of this: essentially, no one in the country should have to worry about their access to food and shelter. (This suggestion is also based partially on the premise of David Graeber’s book Bullshit Jobs, which contends that around half of jobs in Western society do not really need to exist. I’ll admit to a long-standing deep-seated dislike of bureaucracy, which I think is a major contributor to poor mental health of workers.) I also think we need to culturally re-normalize being a stay-at-home parent or a parent who only works part-time, as caregiver burnout is incredibly high and parental stress and busyness has a negative impact on early childhood development (the new mom in me says parenting is one of the most important jobs!)

(5) Ensuring access to nature for all by investing in public parks, and public transit out of cities.

(6) Investing in social programs to improve community life, in particular for at-risk groups. This would also require an investment in infrastructure to create or update sports facilities, arts venues, community centres, etcetera (e.g. ensuring spaces are wheelchair accessible and subsidizing spaces so that they are financially accessible to all).

(7) Implementing a Green New Deal, or similar program, as environment destruction is very much linked to all of this, as it poisons food and water supplies, negatively impacts people’s access to green spaces, and results in pollutants and toxins that harm our health.

(8) Creating affordable housing in all suburbs, especially the most wealthy ones. Right now, people are forced to commute long distances to work because they are unable to afford to live close to their jobs (for example, most of the working-class people who work on the affluent North Shore commute, often up to an hour, leading to constant traffic jams). This creates a lot of unnecessary pollution and stress, and, besides, class segregation is bad for everyone.

The truth is, I don’t think it’s very likely that the current Canadian government will do any of these things (Trudeau is dangling a wealth tax, but I think this is an example of narcissistic future-faking, which his government has a history of . . . remember when he promised election reform and to ensure access to clean water for all Indigenous peoples? Yeah, that never happened). This is why, when we get the chance to, it is important for the health and well-being of all Canadians (except the pocketbooks of the very rich, but, hey, fuck them) to vote for the New Democratic Party (NDP), whose platform includes a wealth tax, a Green New Deal, and affordable housing for all, among other life-saving policies. (UPDATE, Feb 4, 2022: Okay, I take it back . . . after over a decade of supporting the NDP, I’ve really lost faith in the party over the past year. I still don’t like the Liberals, but I don’t feel confident in my “vote NDP” stance anymore. I have no advice, just feeling a little jaded about the whole political situation in Canada. Sigh.)

With love,

Meghan Bell